Hello. I am a 22 year old woman who is dealing with the horrible
syndrome O. My husband and I have a beautiful daughter who is almost 2. When we
found out we were pregnant with her it was a pretty big shock. For one we were
not trying. For two I had actually been seeing a doctor because all my life I
have had very irregular cycles. That doctor told me that I most likely has some
hormone imbalances and possible could have early menopause. She wrote me a
script for Provera to indue a period and sent me on my way. She told me once I
had a period she wanted me to start testing for ovulation using an ovulation prediction
kit (OPK), I started them on or around cycle day (CD) 9 and never got a
positive one. Somewhere around CD 37 the doc told me to take a pregnancy test
and come in for an appointment so we could see what was going on. I took the
test on Feb. 24th 2010 (my hubby’s 30th birthday) around
11am when I got up. It was a very clear positive and I about passed out.
Because me and my hubby (who was just my live in boyfriend of 2 years at the time)
and I were not trying I didn’t know how to tell him. I called my bff Krystal
and my mom and told them because I couldn’t keep this to myself. I went almost
all day with out telling the hubby because I didn’t want to ruin his birthday.
That night a bit before 10 I took another test and I just handed it to him. It
was again positive and he was speechless. Happy birthday honey!
Anyway
fast forward 8 months and our beautiful baby girl was born. She was the most
beautiful thing I have ever held in my arms! 9lbs 5oz of the most amazing
creation God has ever made. She melted my heart and continues to do so 2 years
later.
So
here we are…July 14th 2012… the hubby and I have decided that we
wanted to have more kids. We actually made this choice back in like March of
2011 but we decided we wanted to wait until after our lil girl was almost 1.
Well September of 2011 came very fast and we began to try to get pregnant
again. I got a positive pregnancy test sometime in October but it ended up
being a chemical pregnancy the
chemical pregnancy that save us a whole lot of time and stress. When the
doc was doing the ultrasound to see what was going on he noticed some weirdness
going on with my ovaries. He referred me to an OB/GYN who ran some tests and
diagnosed me with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) I was put on 100mg of
Clomid for 5 days and told to wait. Well we waited the whole month of November
and nothing happened. So came another round of 100mg Clomid and told to wait
again. All of December and NOTHING happened. Well I was proscribed Provera gain
and along came aunt flow. So we upped the dose to 150mg and again we waited.
Only things time I lied to the doc and told him I was having a tun of pain so
that he would do an ultrasound. Turns out I had a 22mm cyst on my right ovary
that a few days later ovulated. Well even though hubby and I baby danced in all
the right times sperm just didn’t meet egg and along came aunt flow again. We
decided to take Feb off because of hubby’s birthday and a planned trip to
Vegas. The cycle was anovulatory (what I expected) and we did prover again and
went on to have my period. As March rolled around we did another round of 150mg
Clomid with no response so we changed doctors. The new doc upped us to 200mg
Clomid with yet again no response. She then referred us to an OB/GYN who did
injections.
I
spoke to my husband about all of this and he said okay. We chose to take a
month off so May was kind of just a relax and lose some weight month. After
about 30 or so days of that my period showed up and we moved forward. We
ordered $800 in HMG injections and started off to the road of hope! Well after
7 days of 150iu injections the ultrasound was not very promising. The doc upped
my dose to 300iu injections for 3 days and had me come back. That was one of
the most heart breaking days of my life. They did an ultrasound that showed
nothing. Not 1 good follicle and not 1 good hope of even ovulation this cycle.
The doc abandoned my cycle and told me to go home and call him on CD35 after a negative
pregnancy test and he would call in some Provera and we would start again.
It
took everything in me to not bust out in tiers before I got out of the doctors
office. I just couldn’t even thing strait. All I could think about was the $800
in injections along with the $1,300 in doctor visits that I had just
waisted!!!! I drove home just bawling my eyes out. Finally I stopped long
enough to call my step mom and vent to her. She was the most supportive person
I have talked to in a long time.
Once
I got home and the hubby and I chatted we decided to wait this cycle out and
see what happens. We are on CD 30 today and its not looking to promising. We
have both adopted a new diet in hopes to lose some weight. We are working out
more and have a plan to get down a few pounds before we start trying again.
It has almost been a year and boy has it
been a hard one. It seems like every where I turn around I have a friend or
someone close to me who is pregnant. The worst part about it is that I can’t
even share with them my frustrations because my hubby wants to keep this all to
ourselves. That’s why I have stated this blog. I will remain anonymous to
respect the privacy my hubby wants but I just have to share my story. I have to
share my ups and my downs with someone. Hopefully I will connect with someone
who is going through the same thing or maybe I will give hope to someone who is
out there struggling with the same things that I am. Either way its just
something I need to do so that I have a way to release my stress and not keep
it all bottled up inside!
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